i had a strange dream last night. we were visiting the hamiltons, in a strange new house. my aunt diane was there, looking for tea. and then everyone i knew was there, sort of. i can't quite describe it, but...it was odd. maybe for me.

going through the college purchases to figure out what i still need before i leave for college. this is somehow a terrifying chore, and mundane. it seems like nothing, but at the same time it means i really am leaving. i got scared during orientation for about a minute as i realized i reall am not coming back to braddock. i don't have one more year. it's really over. i've barely said goodbye, and i'm not really ready to.
actually, i may be ready to go,, i just need to say my goodbyes. and i'm slowly getting those done. a few more to go. this is fritghtening. less than a month.

i was talking to a camper yesterday at aftercare. i said i had spent my entire summer at work. i really had. other than graduation week i have spent all my days at work, and weekends don't do much. this camper thought that was really sad, and pitied me. i've missed a lot so far, so many movies i've yet to see. i need to get out after work. i get off at 4 from now on. i need to use that time to fill out my course schedule for the next four years, and to say my goodbyes. hmm.

well, enough ruminations for now. give some message loves.

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